LOVE GHD situps! Does that make me weird?!
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Started logging my food to keep an accountability going for myself. Harder to cheat on yourself when you know you have to write it down. I can’t handle that kind of guilt haha.
There must be something about this time of year. This time of year last year is when I became fed up with myself. This is the time where I realized that my flesh is weak and I am unable to succeed on my own. Lately I have been feeling pretty crummy. Gaining more proximity to the place that I never wanted to go back to. A place of guilt and shame. Somewhere where I had lost control of my body.
I have been going through a lot of life changes lately. And the stress of it all is showing. I am trying to cling on to stay afloat, and my bad excuses sink me down again. Since taking a break from Crossfit, my mindset was to still be in the gym every day. I have lost sight of my fitness goals and aims to keep getting stronger.
I just have to remember that it is a daily struggle against myself to keep up what I had going. I have to remember to get over myself and to tune out the negativity that floods my head. Looking forward to my commitment to myself and my future. The best part of it all is that I DO have an opportunity. An opportunity to start over and take control of what I thought I lost.
So here I am. Somehow it helps me to write it all down and keep traction on what is going on with me.
I’m not a quitter.
Even though I had to stop crossfit. I refuse to let myself quit on working towards my fitness goals. I have never felt so strong in my life, and now that I won’t be lifting and training at crossfit anymore, I need to put my best foot forward and keep working hard. When I am in a better financial situation I will run back to crossfit like it was my long lost puppy dog, but for now I’m going to have to get creative.
I refuse to sink.
Steamed squash for lunch. Yummmm!